I’m kelsi , and this is my story .
I’ve had eating problems , and have been doing self harm since fifth grade , and I’m now in tenth . I’ve been called every name in the book , everyday . ” Fat / ugly / nasty / thunder thighs / emo ” ect ect.
I was told to go cut myself , so I did . I’ve had food thrown at me at lunch , I’ve had people coming in the class , even though their not in it , just to make fun of me . I’ve tried to overdose 4 times in the past 5 years . Growing up in a broken home , it gets pretty violent . screaming daily since I was 2 , fist fighting both parents , multiple times . Being called a whore by my mother from age 11 , even though I was a virgin .
I told my parents I had a problem , fighting depression is a daily struggle , and that I needed help , because i was scared .. i knew if i kept doing this , id kill myself ..
My dad beat me , and continued to scream at me for hours . So I started cutting more , but in easier hiding places.
I’m sixteen years old now , I’ve lost 50 pounds , and it’s been about 6 months since I’ve last cut . I try to stay optimistic , and happy 24/7 . I help anyone who needs it . I’ve changed my life around , tryin to be a better person . Every day , i get the urge to cut .
But being the ” ugly ” girl all this time .. I just want to be beautiful , and happy . My two goals in life.
I tell myself I’ll never be happy , or beautiful , as long as I continue to hurt myself .
I’m strong , I’m beautiful , and I’ve got a good heart . That’s all that matters ..
So to those who bullied me all these years ; thank you for making me The person i am today .
I don’t pray , But I’m praying for you. I hope you realize the words you say now , can have horrible impacts in the future .